THE INVISIBLE RAIN
26 June 2008, Thursday
A long day at work. Exhaustion all over my body. Reluctant to drive, I headed towards the parking lot, only to find my car missing. After some panicking and calming down, it struck me that I didn't bring my car to work. (Mind, where you at?)
My partner wanted it, and I gave in, not before he played the "I'm back from a long voyage" card.
So, after a quick scan for cabs (to my luck, I found none!), I decided to exploit every citizens' right - public transport.
Found no buses in the closest bus stop despite waiting for quite some time. Grew impatient, and decided to just walk back home.
Started pouring down heavily - not the normal rains everyone experiences, but the kind that inverts your umbrella. Managed to reach a shelter and waited the rain out.
Heard a man call out to me from far. To my surprise, he was without an umbrella or any sort of protection against the rain, and so were everyone else.
Soon, he was so close to me that I could hear his moustache whistle everytime he spoke. He used the choicest of words to abuse and judge me. Asked me why I was gesturing holding an umbrella, and if I was trying to con people. Clueless, I replied in negation and pointed out to the pouring rain. The words became no less kinder, only this time, by more like him, followed by pushing me out of the shelter, claiming it to be only for 'sane people'.
So, there I was, helpless, chattering like a monkey, out in the rain, with an umbrella that started wearing out, only wishing they could empathize with my life.
A second life that I led - a schizophrenic one.
I must've convinced myself a million times - before I headed out in *my* rain - just because they don't see what I see doesn't make me any more insane, or them, any less sane.
If only they could understand.
If only they chose to visualize the seemingly invisible rain.
If only they would not see me as an outcast, or get intimidated by me.
If only...
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26 June 2008, Thursday
A long day at work. Exhaustion all over my body. Reluctant to drive, I headed towards the parking lot, only to find my car missing. After some panicking and calming down, it struck me that I didn't bring my car to work. (Mind, where you at?)
My partner wanted it, and I gave in, not before he played the "I'm back from a long voyage" card.
So, after a quick scan for cabs (to my luck, I found none!), I decided to exploit every citizens' right - public transport.
Found no buses in the closest bus stop despite waiting for quite some time. Grew impatient, and decided to just walk back home.
Started pouring down heavily - not the normal rains everyone experiences, but the kind that inverts your umbrella. Managed to reach a shelter and waited the rain out.
Heard a man call out to me from far. To my surprise, he was without an umbrella or any sort of protection against the rain, and so were everyone else.
Soon, he was so close to me that I could hear his moustache whistle everytime he spoke. He used the choicest of words to abuse and judge me. Asked me why I was gesturing holding an umbrella, and if I was trying to con people. Clueless, I replied in negation and pointed out to the pouring rain. The words became no less kinder, only this time, by more like him, followed by pushing me out of the shelter, claiming it to be only for 'sane people'.
So, there I was, helpless, chattering like a monkey, out in the rain, with an umbrella that started wearing out, only wishing they could empathize with my life.
A second life that I led - a schizophrenic one.
I must've convinced myself a million times - before I headed out in *my* rain - just because they don't see what I see doesn't make me any more insane, or them, any less sane.
If only they could understand.
If only they chose to visualize the seemingly invisible rain.
If only they would not see me as an outcast, or get intimidated by me.
If only...
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WHEN I MISS YOU
When I miss you,
I become like the earth without the sun.
A child without fun
Cold and dark.
For I miss your royal smile's spark
My hearts beats in a frozen cage,
As my soul turns to a blank page,
Where once upon its mate's beautiful face stayed.
Life can be poisonous
And death venomous
But you are the antidote
To both.
When I miss you,
I wear sadness like a smile
And confuse eternity with a while.
I guess all I want to say is this;
That it's hard not to be with you,
When all I think of is you.
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When I miss you,
I become like the earth without the sun.
A child without fun
Cold and dark.
For I miss your royal smile's spark
My hearts beats in a frozen cage,
As my soul turns to a blank page,
Where once upon its mate's beautiful face stayed.
Life can be poisonous
And death venomous
But you are the antidote
To both.
When I miss you,
I wear sadness like a smile
And confuse eternity with a while.
I guess all I want to say is this;
That it's hard not to be with you,
When all I think of is you.
#wca #wcp #diaryentry #journal #review #vb
WHEN I MISS YOU
When I miss you,
I become like the earth without the sun.
A child without fun
Cold and dark.
For I miss your royal smile's spark
My hearts beats in a frozen cage,
As my soul turns to a blank page,
Where once upon its mate's beautiful face stayed.
Life can be poisonous
And death venomous
But you are the antidote
To both.
When I miss you,
I wear sadness like a smile
And confuse eternity with a while.
I guess all I want to say is this;
That it's hard not to be with you,
When all I think of is you.
#diaryentry #journal #review #vb
When I miss you,
I become like the earth without the sun.
A child without fun
Cold and dark.
For I miss your royal smile's spark
My hearts beats in a frozen cage,
As my soul turns to a blank page,
Where once upon its mate's beautiful face stayed.
Life can be poisonous
And death venomous
But you are the antidote
To both.
When I miss you,
I wear sadness like a smile
And confuse eternity with a while.
I guess all I want to say is this;
That it's hard not to be with you,
When all I think of is you.
#diaryentry #journal #review #vb