*To the love of my life*
You came into my life when I was alone another time
Sowed the seed of love in my barren soul
Made me feel what love is for another time
Made me know what it feels like to be loved
Made me understand what true love is
I felt good about myself for the first time
I made sure I was apt for you in all possible ways I could
I was willing to give up everything for you expecting only one thing return
That you would stay with me
You are that one person made me alive after years of mournful love stories
For the first time I thought those who left may not deserve me
You shaped me in every way most surprisingly without your knowledge
I learnt me
I learnt love
I learnt companionship
I learnt trust
I learnt care
I learnt affection
But I am still in the process of learning you
You surprise me every day
You made sure if I am okay even if you weren't
You took care of me in a way that you wanted to be taken care of
You had love for me in various layers
You expressed yourself in various manners
You reached the bottom tip of my soul and nourished me from inside
I saw a new figure in the mirror after your arrival in my life
And now I have spoiled everything in a fraction of second
I don't want to lie saying that I did without knowing
I wanted to do it so I did
I thought it would be better for us
I thought it would always keep you near me
I thought it can make sure you are mine
Yes first time ever since I met you
I thought of myself and not you
For the first time my selfishness possessed me that I couldn't think of it's aftermath
I don't ask you to come again to me
I don't compel you to forgive me
I don't argue that what I did wasn't a big deal
But just remember
I am used to be alone
But you aren't
I am used to be abandoned
But you aren't
I am used to be sad
But you shouldn't
Because pure souls like you should be
loved, cared, kept sacred
All that I want to say is
I have had people in my heart before you
But ever since I met you
It is permanently reserved for you
You can come whenever you wanna see it again
And I am ready to apologize my entire life
For what I've done
Because
I know your love for me
You know my love for you
Come back when you feel like my heart!
#review
#lsm
#openletter
You came into my life when I was alone another time
Sowed the seed of love in my barren soul
Made me feel what love is for another time
Made me know what it feels like to be loved
Made me understand what true love is
I felt good about myself for the first time
I made sure I was apt for you in all possible ways I could
I was willing to give up everything for you expecting only one thing return
That you would stay with me
You are that one person made me alive after years of mournful love stories
For the first time I thought those who left may not deserve me
You shaped me in every way most surprisingly without your knowledge
I learnt me
I learnt love
I learnt companionship
I learnt trust
I learnt care
I learnt affection
But I am still in the process of learning you
You surprise me every day
You made sure if I am okay even if you weren't
You took care of me in a way that you wanted to be taken care of
You had love for me in various layers
You expressed yourself in various manners
You reached the bottom tip of my soul and nourished me from inside
I saw a new figure in the mirror after your arrival in my life
And now I have spoiled everything in a fraction of second
I don't want to lie saying that I did without knowing
I wanted to do it so I did
I thought it would be better for us
I thought it would always keep you near me
I thought it can make sure you are mine
Yes first time ever since I met you
I thought of myself and not you
For the first time my selfishness possessed me that I couldn't think of it's aftermath
I don't ask you to come again to me
I don't compel you to forgive me
I don't argue that what I did wasn't a big deal
But just remember
I am used to be alone
But you aren't
I am used to be abandoned
But you aren't
I am used to be sad
But you shouldn't
Because pure souls like you should be
loved, cared, kept sacred
All that I want to say is
I have had people in my heart before you
But ever since I met you
It is permanently reserved for you
You can come whenever you wanna see it again
And I am ready to apologize my entire life
For what I've done
Because
I know your love for me
You know my love for you
Come back when you feel like my heart!
#review
#lsm
#openletter
The rainy night
The breezy night, dark sky glorified with it's own stars and moon making me drown in some flashbacks. The drizzling of rain drops is taking me to those days, where everything of me revolved around you, where everything seemed so pleasant and pleasing, where you and I were the only beings of my world.
Everything seemed to be perfect and easy. I really thought you were the one I was meant to be with. all you could give me was HAPPINESS happy moments happy days happy nights happy conversations happy tears... I have never even dreamt of being away from you. all i thought was we were destined to meet, we were destined to be together…
I really don't get what happened then! all of a sudden we started drifting apart. I don't know whose fault it was, maybe it was the universe'! there existed confusions in our comfortness, there was misunderstanding in our understanding. I started realizing it was not the US any more, it was YOU and I. It was a hell kinda pain I had gone through accepting the bitter reality. The real struggle was to forget our promises that we've made...the distance between you and me taught me so very much.
As the days went by, maybe it could have been a three digit number of days since we drifted... your name still remained at the top of my chat list. My diary felt difficult to breathe as it was fully loaded since I lost my human diary. My laughter vanished, the happy soul inside me flew away, my tears turned to smiles. My eyes didn't stop to search your vehicle in all that traffic I got struck. my neck never stopped to turn around whenever I crossed your street. my heart never stopped expecting you whenever i hear a calling bell sound. my brain never stopped to bring back memories whenever i hear OUR songs…
As time passes i also taught myself that days and nights come and go with or without our loved ones' gm and gn texts. i understood that we cannot always have what we want with us forever. For the first time I realized that priorities change. I felt that every forEVER has an END. i took the point that changes are inevitable in EVERYTHING. my heart felt the quote "some people can stay in our hearts but not in our lives".
Even now i'm personifying the rain from the sky as YOU, running abruptly to the land which could be luckily ME... here, while writing this, my blurry tear filled eyes expect to see you, the sinking heart still hopelessly hopes to be with you once again, but my brain silently consoles me saying "THIS TOO SHALL PASS"
#review
#lsm
#openletter
The breezy night, dark sky glorified with it's own stars and moon making me drown in some flashbacks. The drizzling of rain drops is taking me to those days, where everything of me revolved around you, where everything seemed so pleasant and pleasing, where you and I were the only beings of my world.
Everything seemed to be perfect and easy. I really thought you were the one I was meant to be with. all you could give me was HAPPINESS happy moments happy days happy nights happy conversations happy tears... I have never even dreamt of being away from you. all i thought was we were destined to meet, we were destined to be together…
I really don't get what happened then! all of a sudden we started drifting apart. I don't know whose fault it was, maybe it was the universe'! there existed confusions in our comfortness, there was misunderstanding in our understanding. I started realizing it was not the US any more, it was YOU and I. It was a hell kinda pain I had gone through accepting the bitter reality. The real struggle was to forget our promises that we've made...the distance between you and me taught me so very much.
As the days went by, maybe it could have been a three digit number of days since we drifted... your name still remained at the top of my chat list. My diary felt difficult to breathe as it was fully loaded since I lost my human diary. My laughter vanished, the happy soul inside me flew away, my tears turned to smiles. My eyes didn't stop to search your vehicle in all that traffic I got struck. my neck never stopped to turn around whenever I crossed your street. my heart never stopped expecting you whenever i hear a calling bell sound. my brain never stopped to bring back memories whenever i hear OUR songs…
As time passes i also taught myself that days and nights come and go with or without our loved ones' gm and gn texts. i understood that we cannot always have what we want with us forever. For the first time I realized that priorities change. I felt that every forEVER has an END. i took the point that changes are inevitable in EVERYTHING. my heart felt the quote "some people can stay in our hearts but not in our lives".
Even now i'm personifying the rain from the sky as YOU, running abruptly to the land which could be luckily ME... here, while writing this, my blurry tear filled eyes expect to see you, the sinking heart still hopelessly hopes to be with you once again, but my brain silently consoles me saying "THIS TOO SHALL PASS"
#review
#lsm
#openletter